An update on the Warden

[madwomanwithabox]

Bonjour, mi amigos...as you've all seen, it's been rough these past few days here in ECVille.

The first thing I need to do is thank you...all of you, for your kind words to me, my family, and about Ramona. As badly as this hurts, it's comforting to know that I've got friends like all of you to lean on when the going gets rough. I'm a little out of touch with fandom at the moment, and I know that some folks are unhappy with others, with TV (a VERY important life event, heeeeee), and with a lot of stuff...but when I needed you all, you were there for me. And I'm always going to be grateful for that.

I wasn't going to discuss anything that's been going on in my post about Ramona...that was for her, and her memory. So...this is the ME post.

Ramona was, basically, my dad's cat...he raised her like he raised me, and she was very much a member of the family...Dad's daughter, Tim's and my sister. Dad's devastated...so's my brother. They're both so totally non-functional right now that settling Ramona's affairs has been left to me. Dad says he can't handle deciding what to do for her, so that's up to Tim and me...but between Tim and me? I'm the ONLY one that's gotten any money together or picked up a fucking phone.

My brother took her to the vet when she collapsed at home...being with her in her last moments was hard on him, I know that. I was the last person to see my mother alive before she died, I know the feeling. But still...

Tim and Dad are grieving. I haven't gotten that chance.

The euthanasia cost $215...I paid the balance yesterday. Burying her will cost nearly $600. Cremation will cost over $100 for the service and an urn. Right now? We had to use food money to pay for her euthanasia.

Tim said it best...we can't even afford for Ramona to die. And there's very little else in the world that hurts as much as that.

I have to talk to the family tonight about the final decision...the vet will hold the remains until the 5th, but I was told they can extend that a bit to the 9th, maybe the 10th. The idea of cremating her bothers me a great deal...but we can't afford anything else. I suppose there's some comfort in keeping her ashes, and we can bury them later...but I don't want to cremate her. I just don't have any other choice.

I don't know exactly how I'm going to get the money together...but I know that I have to. I can't just let the vet dispose of her...it'd be like burying my mother in some Potter's Field.

God, I would sell my soul just to hold her one last time.

Comments

[terri-osborne.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Question, why don't you bury her at home?

When our cat died, we don't have a yard to bury him in, but kradical's parents were kind enough to let us bury him in their yard.

[strutterms.livejournal.com]

It's an option...and not an option. We rent, and our backyard doesn't offer much space for burial...and we rent, so if we ever move? Not such a good idea. lol

Plus I don't think any of us could handle it right now, anyway. Heh.

*hugs back* Thanks for that. Liz like hugs. Hugs gooooood. *hugs you more*

[siluria]

My parents have buried all their cats in their garden, each one buried either at or as close as posible to their favourite spot in the garden, or in the case of one of them that had a huge impact on their lives, in quite a prominent place. The graves aren't marked with names or anything, but with very specific and individual rocks. Whatever you decide I hope it helps *hugs*

[moofoot.livejournal.com]

You don't know me. I don't know you, other than the occasional times that I've seen an entry of yours pop up when I'm reading the 'friendslist' of theatrical_fen. I did, however, see your post about your cat, and a cat owner myself, I can understand what it would be like to go through something like this.

I know thoughts aren't really a big help right now, especially from a stranger, but, you're in them. Best of luck on finding the money to do what you feel is right, and coming to a decision.