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An update on the Warden
Nov. 3rd, 2006 10:16 amBonjour, mi amigos...as you've all seen, it's been rough these past few days here in ECVille.
The first thing I need to do is thank you...all of you, for your kind words to me, my family, and about Ramona. As badly as this hurts, it's comforting to know that I've got friends like all of you to lean on when the going gets rough. I'm a little out of touch with fandom at the moment, and I know that some folks are unhappy with others, with TV (a VERY important life event, heeeeee), and with a lot of stuff...but when I needed you all, you were there for me. And I'm always going to be grateful for that.
I wasn't going to discuss anything that's been going on in my post about Ramona...that was for her, and her memory. So...this is the ME post.
Ramona was, basically, my dad's cat...he raised her like he raised me, and she was very much a member of the family...Dad's daughter, Tim's and my sister. Dad's devastated...so's my brother. They're both so totally non-functional right now that settling Ramona's affairs has been left to me. Dad says he can't handle deciding what to do for her, so that's up to Tim and me...but between Tim and me? I'm the ONLY one that's gotten any money together or picked up a fucking phone.
My brother took her to the vet when she collapsed at home...being with her in her last moments was hard on him, I know that. I was the last person to see my mother alive before she died, I know the feeling. But still...
Tim and Dad are grieving. I haven't gotten that chance.
The euthanasia cost $215...I paid the balance yesterday. Burying her will cost nearly $600. Cremation will cost over $100 for the service and an urn. Right now? We had to use food money to pay for her euthanasia.
Tim said it best...we can't even afford for Ramona to die. And there's very little else in the world that hurts as much as that.
I have to talk to the family tonight about the final decision...the vet will hold the remains until the 5th, but I was told they can extend that a bit to the 9th, maybe the 10th. The idea of cremating her bothers me a great deal...but we can't afford anything else. I suppose there's some comfort in keeping her ashes, and we can bury them later...but I don't want to cremate her. I just don't have any other choice.
I don't know exactly how I'm going to get the money together...but I know that I have to. I can't just let the vet dispose of her...it'd be like burying my mother in some Potter's Field.
God, I would sell my soul just to hold her one last time.
The first thing I need to do is thank you...all of you, for your kind words to me, my family, and about Ramona. As badly as this hurts, it's comforting to know that I've got friends like all of you to lean on when the going gets rough. I'm a little out of touch with fandom at the moment, and I know that some folks are unhappy with others, with TV (a VERY important life event, heeeeee), and with a lot of stuff...but when I needed you all, you were there for me. And I'm always going to be grateful for that.
I wasn't going to discuss anything that's been going on in my post about Ramona...that was for her, and her memory. So...this is the ME post.
Ramona was, basically, my dad's cat...he raised her like he raised me, and she was very much a member of the family...Dad's daughter, Tim's and my sister. Dad's devastated...so's my brother. They're both so totally non-functional right now that settling Ramona's affairs has been left to me. Dad says he can't handle deciding what to do for her, so that's up to Tim and me...but between Tim and me? I'm the ONLY one that's gotten any money together or picked up a fucking phone.
My brother took her to the vet when she collapsed at home...being with her in her last moments was hard on him, I know that. I was the last person to see my mother alive before she died, I know the feeling. But still...
Tim and Dad are grieving. I haven't gotten that chance.
The euthanasia cost $215...I paid the balance yesterday. Burying her will cost nearly $600. Cremation will cost over $100 for the service and an urn. Right now? We had to use food money to pay for her euthanasia.
Tim said it best...we can't even afford for Ramona to die. And there's very little else in the world that hurts as much as that.
I have to talk to the family tonight about the final decision...the vet will hold the remains until the 5th, but I was told they can extend that a bit to the 9th, maybe the 10th. The idea of cremating her bothers me a great deal...but we can't afford anything else. I suppose there's some comfort in keeping her ashes, and we can bury them later...but I don't want to cremate her. I just don't have any other choice.
I don't know exactly how I'm going to get the money together...but I know that I have to. I can't just let the vet dispose of her...it'd be like burying my mother in some Potter's Field.
God, I would sell my soul just to hold her one last time.
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